Alive
A moment of realisation;
My heart sinks
With such vigour
I feel I’ll follow it through the floor
My hands grasp at my chest
Clutching at the physical
In vain, hoping to steady
The racing
The aching
In the pit of my stomach
As you acknowledge me
With anxiety knocking
Rapidly at my ribcage
Giving me no rest
I fear I’ll fall
Into nothingness
In an oblivion
Of absence
Then you’re curt
Insensitive
Unkind
For a split second
For a fraction of a moment
No longer am I falling
I’m swimming
Sad
Swimming in sadness
Disappointed in your hurt
Unsure how to play your current game
I take my leave & my heart in hand
Lost
I am gone
You are omnipresent
In my world
Each breath held hostage
To a memory
Each thought entwined
With your deceit
Love
A moment of realisation;
I still love you
Always will in a way
My hands grasp at my chest
As I decide
To face my day
Alone
Alone but not lonely
Without the comfort of your lies
I am free
Even if I don’t know it in my heart
I know I am free
Alive
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I’ve been an avid reader and scribbler for years but only recently started thinking about publishing my work.
I’ve always enjoyed writing and have, since 2008, been producing scripts for theatre as my main focus of writing, but always scribbling poems, songs and short stories for fun, and/or catharsis. I’m also a keen sketcher and sketchnoter.
Scribbles of an insomniac 