It will all get better in time It’s helpful, it will heal It will all get better in time So they say, but time steals It will give to solace and peace Give you hope, give you distance It is healthy to mourn and grieve So they say, they’re persistent It will all become your…
I didn’t want you to fix me I just wanted you You held my hand through the initial storm Then far away your heart flew I didn’t need you to mend My tortured mind and fractured heart I just wanted to be greeted with your smile And devinity at each day’s start
All those questions you always and never want to know All those feelings you always and never want validated All those answers you never yet always want to hear All those things you never but always want to remember Did you just get bored? Did I do something? Did you ever really love me? Did…
Whilst I still have to see you Every day Every moment Will keep you A Ghost To Me Of what we were The happiness We Had And how You let me Feel Good enough Thanks For taking that away Too My heart My hope My love My self worth And my delight I loved you…
In the dead of night I miss you In the silences we share in those forced moments together Where circumstance meets desire In the dead of night I’m lost In the moments that were forced to share we delight And yet am burning with inferior fire In the dead of my eyes I’m living In…
Delicious irony mocks my memories
As I realise it's gone
The heart break and thunder
Pain pulling back but driving onAcute omnipresent pain
In my heart, the burning fire
At the moment you declare
You admit to me your desire
As I realise mine's faded
The intricate lies we lived together
All the magic is gone
All the threads that were tetheredI've cut loose from my blind loyalty
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And when I finally hear the words
I thought I longed for
I feel nothing, not even hurt
All I feel are the ghosts of pain
Enough to remind me
Not to go there again
When fears linger & crouch in shadows
Like devils in the fog
Knowing all it takes is fractured light
To spring them from the darkNeeding courage to be blinking back burning tears
To step over your heart in the dust
Leave it behind for a future
You will yourself on because you mustBut a white fear grasps at my senses as I look to tomorrow
Knowing you'll never be who you were entwines my thoughts with such sorrowWhen fears linger & crouch in my thoughts
Like devils on the edge of intent
Uncertainty of you
Spins my syncopated hopes into descentHow can I move on and say my goodbyes
When, so silently and abruptly you left
Being around you every day through circumstance
Makes every minute and every hour a testTo shake up my world is so cruel when it's just about my heart
Hoping to find solid ground, an opportunity - still I'm sad to restartI miss you. I love you.
And as always you entice and enchantBut I'll take fate by the hand and leave it all to chance
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Fix my fractured heart with a new kind of dance
Originally one of my micro poems on Twitter the prompt word Oblivion (#TastyPoem) was the inspiration for this one.
She paused, what was it, what was it she could almost see,
Almost feel, to touch, an unsteady, feeling; uncertainty.
But an excitement too, with her stomach floating high
But her heart falling heavy, she exhaled with an overwhelming cry
As if from nowhere her eyes filled with tears - un-cried
It was as if she was looking on, not in but outside.
Then it was clear, in a moment she knew,
Her pattern of remembrance was right on cue.The divine coloured crimson caught in a crystal beam,
Reminded her of him; how intoxicating, he had been.
Her oblivion, her delight, her home and her man
Now lost to her and this world, this was never in their plan.
Every now and again, she'd return to this moment and smile
To sit and be with him, let her self dream, just for a while.The wine's bouquet held a memory, like he was there,
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She could almost feel him run his fingers through her hair,
Then a laugh began to bubble in the back of her throat,
This cocktail of emotions, and only one she could note,
Love.
She raised the glass to her lips with a triumphant lift
Liquid swirls and her heart takes it in; a living memory, like a gift.
Very happy to say that my poem ‘The Beautiful Moment’ has been published on Spillwords today. Hope you enjoy it, Thanks for your continued support folks. Josie x
Scribbles of an insomniac 