A silence so heavy and hollow It can wrap it’s fingers around your heart Reaching through the inner shouts And tormented voices A silence so thick and empty It can wrap itself around your mind Reaching through to highlight the doubts And question all your choices The difference between lonely and alone Is that silence…
A silence so thick, so deafening I can feel it closing in around my cage The cage supposing to protect my heart The silence stifles as I force my breath to engage A silence too cold, like lightening I can feel it’s breath taking hold of my heart The breath supposing to offer a beat…
There’s a moment In this turbulence The trepidation as I step up to the crossroads Where I realise There’s a disturbance The fear holds my heart steadfast as it implodes In that moment I realise, as my heart splits There’s this void in myself that can’t be made complete I’m still in love with you,…
Sometimes there’s just no space to feel anything Other than what’s expected Go through the motions Do what’s predicted Don’t cause a fuss And stay unaffected. Sometimes I lament I prophesise and I long for, Just sometimes I feel it would be easier, If I could be gone for A heart beat or a moment…
Sometimes the desire to run Takes over from everything you love The job, the family, the friends you have will be lost, unforgotten, loved and yet, gone As you acknowledge their kindness But fail to see, how settled in their love You can ever truly be I want to run I want to escape Because…
You said, in another life, You said, if only 20 years ago, You said, you couldn’t because, And then, we carried on in our glow. You said, you could fall in love, You said, you wished you could give me everything you felt I deserved, And then, I watched you live You said, if only…
It’s been hard to take, and hold two things as one Understanding that I’m hurt, yet my feelings for you are gone Not forgotten, not dead, not nothing, Just not breaking and twisting and turning. How can that be, that these two are okay, That it hurts like nothing else, that I lost you in…
Drawing it out With each passing day I’m hurting in my heart As you push me away So much is unspoken In the year that has passed Storytelling in silence To make the hope last I don’t want to play games Or hurt you in turn I only wish you were careful If only you…
Didn’t anyone tell you? She’s gone, the girl you knew I’m an illusion of what you saw Helping to carry her through Through the “good morning!” The daily jibes and jokes fly The facade and feverish delightedness Until I carry her home to cry Didn’t anyone tell you? She’s not sleeping, not laughing I’m keeping…
Hitting reality with a crash When I’m reminded how you don’t want me After a week of chatter from over seas Your hot-and-cold returns, my heart re-breaks and my hopes flee Thanks for the hope And thanks for the intoxicating charm And thanks for the cold hard truth As the floor falls away, I’m suddenly…
Scribbles of an insomniac 