Contrast

When I can see the sun
But not feel it on my skin
When I can hear the music
And my heart won’t tune in
When I see your eyes alight
But the tenderness is gone
When I’m taking strides
Pretending to be strong
In it there’s despair as black as the night
But in me there’s one last flicker, one last fight

Double negative

I can’t not love you

Just because 

They say it’s better in the long run

I can’t not feel comfort

In your smile

Just because our future’s gone 

I can’t not feel empty 

I remember it’s gone

Just because you’ve moved on

I can’t not love you

Just because 

I say it’s easier now that you’re gone

I can move on 

Whilst I still love you 

I can hold the conflict as I run

I can’t unlove you

I don’t want to

Just because your love has gone 

I can’t unfeel or unsee

Everything good you were to me

I know that’s better in the long run

By your leave

Sometimes it’s best to step back

Step away

Trip away 

Remove yourself from the situation
Sometimes it’s safer to hold back

Trip away

Step away

Hold your tongue and unanswered questions 
Sometimes it’s kinder to yourself to be cruel and bold

Take your leave

And by your leave

Hold your searing pain and burning passions 

 
Sometimes it’s kinder to yourself to appear kind but feel cold

Take your leave

And by your leave

Take control of your own fate, your decisions
Sometimes it’s easier to leave than to be left behind

So take your time

Trip away

Hold your tongue

Step away

When it’s a daily trauma you find
Take your leave

Keep your questions

And by your leave

Tame your passions

Sometimes it’s crueler to be kind

Time

Time stands still, but the world rushes by
She waits and wonders, no longer can she cry
She pushes for time, she pulls back the world
Longing for comfort as her fears unfurl

She feels her mind race as her heart stops a beat
Chasing the world, turning, her tumbling thoughts retreat
She looks to the sky for the hope of a cloud
A reason to feel darkness and speak her fears aloud

She glances at the floor as her stomach falls and flips
That falling feeling engulfs in a second, but the ground is solid where she sits
She’s chasing time as she just sits
Chasing through memories and the bitter ‘what if’

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Stepping 

Sometimes to move forward
You feel like you’re stepping back
Sometimes this gives you the space
To feel like you’re on the right track

Sometimes stepping seems impossible
You feel like you’re wading or trapped
Sometimes try standing fast in this moment
You may see something new in this gap

Sometimes to stand is the biggest step
You feel that moving backwards is just too tough
Sometimes your strongest move is to pause
And know that your presence in time is enough

Moving on

I just didn’t find the courage
I just couldn’t find the words
I didn’t have the notion
I couldn’t foresee the hurt
Now I see you everyday
And we have to act like it’s all okay

I just didn’t understand it
I couldn’t stop you fading
Now I see you every day
Both of us masquerading
Hiding behind excuses, it hurts
Each day I’m tripping over your words

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